Hell Mouth

Have you done this to me?

AnywY I think I’m in hell already and god is just torturing me forever and ever for fun The memories of things in life that I enjoyed feel too distant They must have been implanted It makes sense tho I think I am in hell Either that or imma have a psychotic break bc of thinking that I don’t think that I actually ever had someone I was in love with or had friends I think those memories were retroactively implanted To tantalize me Tantalus and Sisyphus Same person Behind the mask Because what do you think kept Sisyphus going? A tantalizing promise, forever just out of reach Maybe if u just refuse to have hope you can’t be tortured (amor fati as a paraphrase of “abandon all hope, ye who enter here”) Hope is what they use to keep u being tortured If u just recognize yr in hell It’s harder to torture u I was never W alker Storz.   All the memories I have of friends or lovers feel too distant and must be fake, I have always been here in this house and